ahhhhh :)

Haven't posted in a while. i just got done working out for an hour & a half. i feel so great, i love the feeling i get. i'm going to get a gym member ship next week so that i can work out ALL the time :) i want to look good by the time graduation rolls around but we will see, just gotta work towards my goals. I've been trying to take some time to myself, and do things for myself also. I'm working on my relationship with my boyfriend & my family. & doing whats best for me. i need to work on my senior year since i haven't really enjoyed it like i wanted too, which really sucks because i don't want to regret it. But i'm getting off so i can shower, clean my room, & make dinner for my family :)

love always,

Lindsaaaaaaayy

:)

So, ever since Tuesday I've been in a good mood, well a great mood. Danny & i got in a huge fight, maybe one of our biggest fights. & honestly i thought that my relationship was going to be over. i was so miserable the whole entire night when he said he was leaving for a couple days, i was so sad and upset. I was trying so hard, not to talk to him to to text him because he told me not too. I was thankful to have a great friend to talk to that night, because she knows how i am and always gives the best advice. Danny came home on Tuesday, when i thought he would be gone for a few days. i was so happy to know that he was coming home, i was just scared about what he had to say. We talked about things & everything is better. he missed and he said it took everything he had not to talk to me & that he missed me too. but i was so happy everything worked out, i love my boyfriend with everything i have :) he is the best and i never want us to fight again. i learned i need keep my comments to myself.

i love my amazing boyfriend :)

Words can't describe how i feel

"Love is when you find someone you can really be yourself with. That you can share anything with, like a best friend. It's when you can't even imagine what your life would be like without that other person. When words don't even come close to how you really feel and even though it doesn't make sense to other people, you know you're meant to be together."

Dear Danny,

I love you more than anything in this world. You make my life so amazing and interesting, words can't even describe how i feel. When we first started dating i KNEW that we would last forever, i don't want anyone else. You have blown me away, because i never knew that guys like you existed. I want our relationship to work, because i can see you in my future. We are both smart people and we have a lot of stuff going for us in life. despite our differences i know that things can work, we just have to work at it. I know we have been fighting, but i can admit i was wrong. I said some wrong things, which if i wouldn't of said we wouldn't be in that situation. i hope that we can resolve this, it's hard not being able to talk to you when i want to or even seeing you. it's hard, i don't even know how to feel. all i know is that you have only been gone 2 hours and i miss you like hell. & i hope i don't have to wait forever because forever is a long time. But i really can't wait to be back in your arms again, because being alone with out you hurts. i have nobody to talk to, nobody to kiss me, laugh with me, pick on or annoy me. i just hope that things work out, actually i know they will :) because i love you & i know you love me!

I love you with everything i have baby,

Love you ALWAYS-Linds

Happy Late Valentines day

I had a great valentines day, my boyfriend got me this adorable teddy bear from build a bear (this is like my 5th bear since i was like 10). It's precious, & then we went to lunch before i had to go to work. BUT i much rather would've wanted to go out with him, and spend the day together. Work was different tonight, i played bartender & i waitressed a little bit. Ha, i have NEVER done either. I felt bad though cause the other 2 hostess i was going to work with don't really like each other, & i'm friends with both of them. I felt bad for both of them, when my boss needed me to go to the bar. but it was really fun. Tomorrow is my first day back in like 10 days? who knows i've lost count. but i also have orientation at my new job KOHLS tomorrow :) im nervous. But i think im going to go back to bed.

Love,
Linds

P.S. i really really really really love my boyfriend :)

ugh

SO today has started of not so much how i wanted it to. Daniel & i are kinda not talking. basically i'm fighting with myself, but it hurts when i don't feel appreciated. I work SO hard to make him happy & i thank him for everything he does for me. It makes me sick when i see how other couples are SO cute, because thats how me & Danny use to be...we were so adorable that it seriously made people jealous, & honestly i liked it that way. I just want to feel like that again, when everything was perfect no fighting. WE NEVER use to fight...we were dating at least 5 months before we had our first fight. Thats pretty damn good if you ask me. But im just tired of feeling these ways:
1) like he doesn't appreciate me
2) Not as sweet as he use to be
3) Doesn't care about anything
4) Doesn't talk to me
5) Being mean

He never ever ever use to be like this, so it bothers me. & i try telling him how i feel and its like talking to a wall, all he says is sorry everytime. But sorry doesn't make things better, you actually have to make a change. all i want is:
1) for him to show me he cares
2) tell me he loves me without me saying it first
3) give me a kiss without me asking for one
4) WANT to spend time with me
5) APPRECIATE ME

"Appreciation makes people feel more important than almost anything else you can give them."

We will see how this plays out, but for now im keeping my distance so maybe he can understand he is really hurting me.

On a better not i found the dress for prom that i want for $94, when i think origanally it's like $200-$300. So i'm pretty happy, i just hope that tomorrow is a good Valentines day, cause i really could use some cheering up right about now :(

Done venting for now,
Linds

Sleepy Girl

Tonight was my first night back to work, and for some reason i am so tired. i need to suck it up because i work everyday this weekend. I came home from work tonight & my boyfriend is really upset & it's bothering me. i wish i could make him feel better :( i'm cutting it short again for the 2nd night, im so tired.

Sweet dreams,
Linds

SO tired

Ahh, i could literally sleep for days! We went up the road to ride yesterday, it was SO freaking cold. I was actually warm except for my face, i looked completely ridiculous though. It was a lot of fun :) We ended up staying up there and came home this morning, i didn't sleep good, prob because i wasn't in my bed :( & maybe that is why i am so tired. It's a short post, i really think i'm going to hit the sheets.

Good Night & Sweet Dreams

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